I know, I know. This wait is impossible! I never thought it could be this bad! Before when I was with CHI and my dossier was at the MFE, I was a lot more patient, I think because movement with my dossier would surely mean that is was coming home. What do you know...it did! Or maybe it is because I am going on 2 years and 6 months since I signed my first contract with CHI. That seems like a lifetime and for some that 2.6 years has brought them two children. Me I check my email!
I know in my heart that I will bring a child home some day and I know in my heart that there is nothing that I can do to speed it up I just never expected this bit of depression and the great big sighs that happen on a daily basis because I haven't heard any news. I have full confidence in my new agency and I know that they are doing everything in their power to make this happen but still I worry. Sigh.
I wish I could take my own advice, when I am working and we are delayed and have about 9 hours left of flight and someone comes back and asks about their connection. Especially when it looks like they are not going to make it....I usually say...... well there is nothing you can do about it for the next 9 hours.....you might as well enjoy the flight, watch a movie play some games because we will get there when we get there, then you can worry about the next steps to getting where you are going. That sure sounds like sound advice, wonder why I can't take it!!?? Sigh.....
6 comments:
Sounds perfectly normal to me.....adoption obsessive disorder.
Your adoption is coming, and will probably surprise you by arriving faster than you expect.
Hi, I just saw your blog on lotsofkazblogs and read your post today. We have a similar timeline. My dossier arrived at the MFA 11/2/08 and we were assigned a region on Presidents Day and met our daughter 3/14. Hopefully your call will come quickly.
Best,
Mary Collier
marycollier930@msn.com
PS: I phones are just torture to have during the adoption process, because you can always check!
Oh Lisa, just put the phone down and slowly back away.....that's right....you can do it....no wait. Go back and turn it off then back away. Now try it for an hour at first....then two and before you know it you'll get through a whole night without checking. But hey, maybe this is good training for when Sam keeps you up at night. The only problem is you'll be too exhausted to hear him cry. So I repeat...step away from the phone!
I can relate to how hard the wait is--especially when you are expecting news and especially when it seems so much quicker for everyone else. You were always so good at encouraging me so I hope I can return the favor. I know you will get the call--for me it was when I least expected it. And I know you will travel and bring Sam home. I don't know the timing but it will end up being the perfect time.
So..I agree with Lou Ann (even though it's hard)--put down the phone and walk away. It will ring whether you are checking it or not.
Hang in there, you will hear something soon and then everything will happen so fast you will wonder about the days you ever had so much time to check you email! Soon you are going to be a mommy!!
Hugs to you!! I wish there were answers - your journey has had so many twists, turns & bumps so far - it isn't right! But you are doing all that you can, as you know :) The moment you meet your child will be all the sweeter because of them. (Not that it makes it any easier, I know). May faith & hope surround you when the sighs are near. Hugs!
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