Monday, September 22, 2008

Revelation

My friend Tina let me listen to this song that she has on her ipod....Revelation by Third Day.  I had tears in my eyes when the song was over.  It couldn't be more perfect.

  "Give me a revelation...show me what to do......'cause I've been trying to find my way.... and I haven't got a clue.....tell me should I stay here......do I need to move.......give me a revelation...."

I don't think I have been this scared in my whole life.....waiting to see if my dossier comes back.  Every day is the day that I may get the call.  So, what if the little soul meant for me is in Kaz and my dossier comes back.....how will I have the money or the strength to start over?  Will I have to abandon my dream? Can I do this?

14 comments:

Rose said...

Yes, you can.

Rose said...

You can, and you will, do whatever it takes to find Sam...wherever he may be. If you believe that he is in Kaz, then you will do whatever you need to do to bring him home from there. I know that you will.

Baby Kaz Moore said...

I'm not sure what the future holds. I do believe that sometimes when it's the darkest, a light will shine forth. Take care, Susan

Joby and Marla said...

The unknowing is the worst part of any journey. I don't know any words to write that would make the uncertainty go away.

Hopefully you will hear something TODAY. I am praying you will be in Kaz with me. It sucks that you have to wake up each day & wonder if today is the day that I get good news or bad.

You will find your way to Sam!!!!! You Can!!!! You Can!!!! You CAN!!!

qmiller said...

Lisa: I'm so sorry that you're so afraid---this whole thing is just so nutty! I remember being so freaked out about the $ and whether I'd really have enough to make it through---should be no big surprise to hear that it's still can be really tight as a single mom, but I wouldn't have it any other way!
This anxiety is so much more costly than any adoption ever could be...
Quaintance

McMary said...

Lisa,
You definitely have the strength--I have seen it in you.
This uncertainty you have is the worst place to be in but you are strong enough to keep going on--I don't know when or how but you will make your way to Sam--of that I am sure.
I am praying for you all along the way.
Mary

Julie said...

Always keep in mind that you can switch your dossier to another agency that is moving faster in Kaz. Kaz is a country that will allow this. Hopefully it will all work out and this will not be an issue for you, but keep that as an option.
Julie

Laura said...

Have you contacted other agencies to see if they can help? Or what it would take to redo parts of you dossier to resubmit? If I were you, I'd call Little Miracles and just see what they say.

Jessica and Chris said...

You would not have made it this far if you couldn't do it. You can do whatever you set your mind to doing.....think positive thoughts and good things will come to you.

Jessica

By the way I would love to follow your journey!
jwearing@hotmail.com

Andrea said...

Hang in there, Lisa! It's a rough time for Kazakhstan adoption, but you know where your child is... I'm with you. It's so hard to stay positive when you see all of the sad outcomes. Remember, there are lots of positive outcomes unfolding as we speak. It's often the bad news you hear on the boards - the happy people are too busy to post! :-) Hopefully sometime soon you will be silent because you are so busy with your Sam. Chin up. It'll all work out.
xo
Andrea
SKM PAP in NH

Joby and Marla said...

Thanks for the invite!

I keep checking on you hoping to see good news about Sam!!!!!

Marla

Harmondk2 said...

Yes - you can do this. You are at this place for a specific reason. You are experiencing the challenges of adoption and are proving your love for Sam...every single day.

- (we've been without a home computer for ~5 days.. eeekkkss)

PA hu! Well I have been thinking about Tx a lot. I learned of a couple "situations" from an agency we are not with. I'll send you the particulars...

We are always thinking of you!

Kari and Danny

McMary said...

Thanks for the invite--I got it and it worked.
I am thinking of you everyday!!

Aaron and Julie said...

Thinking & praying for you!!! Third Day has a way of relating in a very real way.

PS - the flight attendants were great to us on our trip :)

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