Monday, November 10, 2008

humbled

I have been humbled several times today.  My 20 year old cousin is fighting cancer and is loosing her hair. See www.Makingcancerhistory.blogspot.com. How can I be angry?  Just a moment ago I found out my favorite family, whose dossier came back because of a gender choice.....found out their domestic birth mother was in labor...only to find out that they baby died in child birth.  I am just devastated and now ashamed at myself for feeling sorry for myself.

Please send out a prayer to Kendall and Kari and Danny.  Thanks.

12 comments:

qmiller said...

Oh my...what a sad day on so many levels. They are in my prayers.
Quaintance

Lou Ann said...

Lisa, I'm so sorry to hear about your cousin. It's horrible at any age but 20 just seems wrong! My prayers are with her.

As for Kari & Danny how sad. They have really gone through some tough times to become parents. The lose of a child through still birth is just heart wrenching. I'll pray for everyone involved and hope they find happier times soon.

You too have to keep up the fight and your spirits. Don't let the system beat you down. You know how I feel about the BS you are going through right now and I hope it will be resolved soon with you getting on a plane to Kaz.

Lou Ann & Lexie

McMary said...

Who can begin to understand why these things happen. I will definitely pray for your cousin and for Kari and Danny.

Don't feel ashamed for feeling sorry for yourself--the frustations and disappointments you are experiencing are real too.
My advice--allow yourself 15 minutes of self pity a day and then get up and go on. It will be worth it in the end.

Harmondk2 said...

...We are so thankful that you are part of our journey and our healing process. You have no idea how many times YOU have helped me...Thank you, thank you...thank you... !

- Kari

The Dusty Attic said...

Lisa...Things can happen that really put things in perspective. In regards to your last post, I think that we can all say that it is hard to stay positive 100% of the time and we have all felt discouraged and sometimes just really MADDDDD! I think if you didn't feel like that once in awhile that would be abnormal. Hang in there....there must be a reason while your dossier is still there!!! Even though its tough, hang in there.

Courtney said...

Aunt Lisa,

I know this whole process has been very difficult and trying for you. Just like in the song "Revelation" you just need to talk to God and ask for his help. Once your focus is on Him and his love for you, things just fall into your lap...It sometimes takes finding the bad and turning it into good becasue God give us everything (the good, the bad, and the ugly) and everything is done in His time and there is no rushing perfection.

I love you,
Courtney

Matthew Ruley said...

That is a very very sad day. I am so sorry to hear about your friends. My roommate, friend and coworker (from right after college) died in the last 2 weeks from cancer (she was 47) and it made me really sad.

On another note, you DO deserve to be upset, angry, depressed about no word from your agency about your dossier. I know who your agency is because I was a cliet of theirs and fired them after waiting 7 months. The SHOULD keep you informed. Even if you were a client and waiting for something mundane like a pair of shoes, if you've not heard anything for 7 months, shame on them. That is what good customer service is. Even if it is a call to say they haven't heard anthing, but just to check in with you.

On the other hand, things are tough in Kaz adoptions. The wait is longer, and there are so many uncertainties and rumors.

Don't give up. It will happen.

qmiller said...

Lisa: Wishing you a Happy Thanksgiving and praying that you and Sam will soon be celebrating your thankfulness at finally being a family!
Quaintance

The Dusty Attic said...

Just checking in on you wondering if you found out anything yet?? Hope you are doing okay. I am thinking about you.

qmiller said...

Hey Lisa...just checking in to see how you're doing. Hope you're OK. Quaintance

Harmondk2 said...

Just wanted to say hi and let you know we are thinking of you. I hope your holiday is filled with lots of family love and the occasional cup of cheer :)!

Kari

Baby Kaz Moore said...

Hi Lisa, just wanted to send you a note to let you know that I'm thinking of you and sending good wishes. Ok, when are you going to be in Austin? I only live 1 mile from Hula Hut and the margaritas are calling us. Best, Susan

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