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Hi all, I just decided to go public again. I miss the feedback and meeting new people on my blog. Here is a little about me if you are just tuning in;

I am single and 47 years old, I have wanted to adopt all my life. I used to ask my Mom if she would be supportive if when I got to be 30 and wasn't married, I adopted. 30 turned into 40 and then when I turned 45, I absolutely panicked! So I started seriously looking into it....no longer waiting for that child to be placed on my doorstep. I was told by a psychic that she could see me with a little boy. I told her that my guides/guardian Angels better hurry up and get things going and she laughed! She said, "They said YOU need to hurry up and get things going!" So it was done.

I attended a Children's Hope International meeting back in 2007. Being a single PAP that left me with Ethiopia, Vietnam, Russia and Kazakhstan. I looked into Kazakhstan and it just seemed perfect for me. The kids are gorgeous, well cared for and I loved the fact that they require a 14 day bonding period in country. I would get to see my child in the only home that he has known. The thought of someone handing me a baby without any knowledge or help scared me to death!

I signed with CHI and had a pretty good run, at least to the MFA, when starting in August 2008 some of the CHI paperwork started coming back to the agency with a myriad of reasons. Let's see....Age of PAPs, chose a gender, expired paperwork, never left the Embassy. We were all devastated. So much time, money and hope down the drain. In the interim, there was a slow down in Kaz. Because there wasn't a lot going on, I found an in country coordinator that was willing to help me move my dossier along only with the blessing of CHI. CHI turned them and me down flat. I was floored. Later I found another agency willing to look for my dossier in Kaz at the MFA. They could never locate it at all. Was it even there? I may never know. Anyway, my dossier was returned to me, exactly as I had submitted it, on January 30, 2008.

So, all this being said, I immediately went to Kids to Adopt. Erin is the new Kaz director there. She and her in-country coordinator are the ones that tried to help me in the beginning. Kids to Adopt is not the biggest agency who works in Kaz but I was ever grateful for the help and the ethics that Erin and the coordinator showed. A friend of mine recommended Erin in the first place and said that she would follow Erin anywhere on her next adoption(she has a beautiful Kazakh daughter aged 2)....that was good enough for me!

Here I am today, back to having HOPE for my Kazakhstan adoption. I am hearing all sorts of chatter about changes in the adoption process there...more time in-country and of course that means more money. I am happy to do the "time" in Kaz, I just wish I won't have to live in a broom closet when I get there! Money is going to be really tight. It may be peanut butter and jelly sandwiches the whole time. But in the end.....I know it will be worth it all if my dream to become a mother comes true.

Thanks guys for all the wonderful support that you give me!! I couldn't do it without you!

Oh, I forgot to mention. The last I heard my dossier was being sent to the DC Embassy.