Friday, May 9, 2008

one of those days

Sometimes I think that there is maybe too much information out there.  I was reading someone's Kaz adoption blog and saw some negative comments about my agency. First I panicked then called my friend Mary, who is a little ahead of me in the process.  I think Mary and I talked each other down, we seem to do that a lot.  Yesterday I was reassuring her, today her me.  I still feel good.  I have a great agency who has been in Kaz since 2004.  I think that there are things that happen in country that have nothing to do with the particular agencies.  This is a hard enough process and hearing negative comments does not help. 

When I started this process I asked a friend of mine.... how will I know.....which country, which agency, domestic or International? She said....you can't make a mistake. You will find your way to where you need to be.  I believe she was right.  I went to a domestic adoption meeting and it just didn't feel right, I attended a CHI meeting and fell in love with the presenter and decided then and there that CHI was the agency for me! I would not be in the place I am today if I had backtracked on every decision I made.  Sometimes you can look around and ask why did I have to go through a particular situation? There is a reason for everything!!

I also started this journey knowing that if there is not a little soul out there meant to be mine, then there is nothing in the world that I could do to make it happen. I told myself in the beginning that I would be at peace with whatever God has in store for me.  Not everyone is meant to parent a child for whatever reason.

I am hanging on with HIGH HOPES and FAITH that my child is where he is supposed to be and I am exactly where I am supposed to be!  

5 comments:

McMary said...

Thanks for the mention in your blog--I'm glad we can help each other when we need it. I just feel that the little soul of Sam is out there for you and that we will both realize our dreams of parenting.

Aaron and Julie said...

I agree, there is too much info on the internet :) I remember going crazy over some of it. Okay, I still go crazy over some of it and we are home! Keep following your heart and believing in the peace in your soul. Faith will get you from where you are to where you are going :)

lisa said...

Aaron and julie! How are you guys? How is Ben? Thanks for the comment!

Baby Kaz Moore said...

Hang in there! In my journey, I learned that things were happening that I could not see at the time but only later on. Best wishes, Susan & Griffin

qmiller said...

Lisa: There is so much out of your control on this journey...and then, lo an behold, so little you can control as a parent once they finally do come home! I remember someone telling me that without expectations, there is no upset...I had to remind myself that so many of my upsets during the wait were coming from other people's questions/processes. Breathe, Breathe and then Breathe some more! Quaintance

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